simple life

out to outerspace...

2007-01-01T05:44:00.000+08:00

happy new year everyone...

wad a year...spend my ass of workin and not clelbrating...
end of the day...
not a appreciation from my stupid assistant manager...bloody hell...

friends came...dunno where to go...got so fed up with them...so decided not to tag them along...
totally...boring...jus gng out to hv supper....wad a year...

thot colleague will be staying out late but all went home...
thot u will be staying r asking me out..but.....nvm....

poor khai....suppose to acc u but cant help it...no one wanna tag us along to somewhere...
end up u hv to chill at gotham with your friends.

wad a day to start in a yr....
boring day....everything seems to be against me...
wanna buy food sold out...
fuck...

y does thing always not to be the way u wan to be ...

always u said u need to talk to me.....ages...i wait and wait....
i hv to approach you to talk bout the prob....waiting for your reply....
timeis always a matter....to us....
so tim tam is wad....is she or not...
i hate it....thing seems to be gng on well but at time it seems like its not...u r not...
so wad is it....which is you....i hate to do this...
i hv to ignore you at time....then when u think there is something wrong when we dun talk...
u said we need to talk...
den thing goes on again....
i hope thing will just be the way we want....more of i wan it to be...

kill.

2006-12-26T05:12:00.000+08:00

flash back...ok...birthday...cool.... i had 2 celebrating on 2 sides...
unexpected guest.and so many drink...
so much...
and i was drunk...deAD drunk...
okay...song...birthday song...
live band...i brokedown....
so much emotion...

then somemore celebration with my other friends....theres some more coming up...not done with it yet

thank you all!!!love ya...!!!

till then....lotsa things been happening....today too...
i jus dun know who i m kn==now...thot everything was fine...but its not....i dun know wa to do with myself alreadi...
ii will seriously pay someone to kill me

hai....

complicated.

2006-12-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

haiz..i m realli about to kill myself..
living in this world causes me too much headache.
i m so tired of so many things tht is happening...
i dun know wad to say alreadi...
seriously.
i m so dead.
not being myelf not being who i m not being wad so ever...
i wanna die.someone kill me pls.

wad else to blog...haiz.

ireeplacable

2006-12-16T09:58:00.000+08:00

are you gay?
why r u thinking so much?
why u look so stress?

i know pple been asking me bout all this ques....
if u know me...pple...i wont be surprise u would ask me this 3 ques...
1st ques...are you gay?
i dun know y but thats are pple fav ques...
i dun know y u guys will ask this...but do i lok gay to you guys.?seriously.?
pple might take it as a joke but sometime it realli irritate me...
i dun feel tht if i were to be one...i wont be proud to live up tht name..
i feel embarass...like how could u acept tht?
i dun know...thts me....
wether to e or not to be gay...it doesnt matter in this world now....
its a exprience tht most pple goes thru...
everyone hv male and female homones...its just more or less...
thts y there is les and gay....

i o gonna get piss off if someone gonna ask me tht when i m not...
doesnt mean i look small and my action are like a kid or some say softer(wadever)...tht i m gay...

okayyyy...

y i think so much....?
this is born me...i cant help it....
my thots are never ending...
i m worried for myself...
pple are worried bout me...
a 17 yr old kid hving thots of a 30 yr old man...or up to 50s.
i hate it...but thts just me....i cant help it...seriouly.

as for the third ques....the answer is in ques 2 ...
so thts y i get stress....

i m in a state of confusion now...
like i dun know wht to do...to do this is not...to do tht is not....
y i m given this trouble...
i just hope tht i would nvrmeet u guys....in my life to get me into so much trouble
adn thinking bout who i m ....
i m so confuse right now...i dun know wad to do ....
i m worried...

i hope tht i could just breaak down for a moment...and fporget bout everything...
and finish all this shit tht is going in my life..

someone help me out there.

sucks big time

2006-12-15T03:04:00.000+08:00

why does we have to think bout all this things in life.
y cant we just live in the world...just in peace...
y does we have to trouble bout so many things in our life.?
y cant we just live in peace....?

i m so confused right now....
i hate what i m recepting...
y m i not born in heaven ....
to do thing to others...
help pple....set up pple....
y does i hv to live in this way....i accomplish the process of changing..
but its just seems tht it doesnt stop...it just keep coming.

i hate it....now i hv more confusion...
i so need to get attach..not just for myself but also for everyone to know something...

now i cant breath.
no i cant slp.
i barely hanging on.

here i m ....once again...i m torn into piece....
cant deny.cant pretend.

there so much things in life tht we need to face.but the hardest thing to face is the weakness of heart.
cause tht control what u r feeling...to make you think of what u truely are.
and what u wan....

i hate ****

diaster love

2006-12-13T06:59:00.000+08:00

i just simply din enjoy my day today.
i hv to pay for a bill tht this 3 customer ran away for.
and my freaking colleague words just slap me in the face.
totally.

i curse the 3 idiot to be bang down by car.
down on my freaking luck..
and i eft the place without a word ...
i just dun understand y my manager is not understanding enuf to just void of the bill.
i could freaking say tht partly it asnt my fault caue the customer went off..
and the rest of the fucking server cant even pay attention to the rest of the customer...

egoist idiots.

i wan to finish the damn fucking story....just a simply ques with a simple answer u cant give it...
u r unless to the max...
there is nth else to talk cause this ques is just a str8 forward ques....yes or no.
the rest can slowly talk out...

convert to part time.
y u need another job.
cant stay here...
wad is wrong with you.
fuck u la...get out of my damn life..
i wouldnt wanna know u and have this stupid story.
m doesnt pple lead just a normal life.
enjoy royalty.
spend money like no one business..
but i hv to work my ass off....and face all this stupid pple in my life.
fucked tup!

y wouldnt pple just understand me.
y thing just doesnt goes the way i wan.
i hv change...
i tame down alot...is this wad i get....i jut wan my life to be simple...thts all..
is this karma..?

i just feel like breaking down...y does no one understand me...
even the one i wan to understand me...
doesnt know what i m going thru right now...

i just wan the ideal person to be sitting beside me...
by somewhere quiet.
pour out my problem to whoever..
and hv a gd breakdown and let me rest thru the night.

i hv changed.
to i dun know who i m ...
not the me i know and i wan.....
fuck birthday..just let me be alone...
no use celebrating to a person tht i dun know at all..
i dun know what i wan...
i dun know who i m...
i dun know what fucking shit answer and reply am i waiting for...
this is not real...fucking wake up...will i ?

sunday blue.

2006-12-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

another day has just past.
days of my life is getting weirdier.
things just dun seems right now and then...

waiting seems to be like winter.
the night is just longer than usual...

y is it so hard to know someone...it takes century to seriously know someone at time...
or its just me...

things are just complicated...i hope there wasnt any misuderstanding or conception in the first place.
when u wanna settle things ...it just sucks.
it will be short to let go...but its just a matter of time..i think...
i hope...

sometime...when i think bout myself...like seriously y i m in this state...wad i hv made myself into...
realli makes me wanna break down at times...

m i just being...useless...or what so ever...
its so easy to realise something is wrong then something is right..
when things are wrong....u know it....u try to save it...
but there is a limit...
to what u can do....
it takes two hand to clap...

live is just a miserable thing.

here i m
once again..
i m torn into piece.
cant deny it cant pretend......

talk to me!!!now..!!!

confession suck

2006-12-10T10:22:00.000+08:00

i m glad tht i said what i need to say....
actually not realli say..but it was on text.
but the reply was...verbally slap on my face.!

seriously...i was still shock...
altough it was a relieve saying what u need to say...
but then this is the time tht makes you think bout it more.
about whats the outcome
and the reply.

reply wasnt as expected as it was .
reply are just to make you to get into the conversation/situation more.
im more than worried now when the story was left cliff hanging..

haiz...state of confusion.

would u prefer to be hurt or to hurt people.
both is a difficult situation.
so what u do to choose..?

to ignore or to go with the flow....

arrrrrrrr!!!madness la.
what i m thinking now and then.

i wanna get over it...there is so many things in my head.
my mind is like gng to explode...
mybdae...got so many things to plan..omg...how to handle it...

i need to ask the ques.after the reply.
i need to navigate his answer.
i need to say to say wads my thots to the answer..
lets hope the better for the day..hmmmm....haiz....hmmmm...haiz...hmm...

unbelievable

2006-12-09T04:40:00.000+08:00

sometime...i see pple just spend their money like water from the tap...
and u dun find them rich at all...
base on their salary...
maybe due to the parent or so..
its just so hard to understand all of them...fully....

i was suprise to say tht i confess about something...
tht i nvr thot i will...
omg...
tht sucks...
tomolo....i go no face at all...to face tht person...
oh well...tomolo will be tomolo...
let see how it goes...
i dun wanna be embrassed...just work...

i wanna be rich...spend money like no one business....i wanna be rich!!!
work it!

complcated complication .wadever

2006-12-08T02:21:00.000+08:00

its fun to be in skool....things are so fine..
everyone knows everyone...
everyday is a fun day..

when u start working....
pple are diff..
diff kind of pple..
diff working style..
diff attitude...
diff cockiness...
diff background influence...
diff feel...
everything its just diff...

y things are lined up in this way...
sometime u wanna know someone...the person change...
the feeling just sucks to the core...u pet yourself in a siuation whereby u wana know omeone.
and you get into theor shoe..
when u are used to that...
the person changes....its like ....u feel lost in the person u wanna know...

ego....y doesnt pple hae ego...am i too young to work...y do pple wanna show pride in working and ego as well.
its like...totally no point...u work hard enuf..pple see...they will give it to you..
u doesnt have to fight for it...
if it comes.....it comes...if it doesnt...then leave it..

oh well...when thing like this happen...u r scared..u wanna back out...
but when another things tht u hv to involve them in ...like bdae or so..
omg...totally..u cant run away from it forever...

till then..worried bout bdae...waiting for pple to book me out..ahaha

idiotic-ally ironic dumb shit

2006-11-20T00:55:00.001+08:00

ignore me on this post again...

gosh.....bad bad....this is shit...
i mean this is so wrong...everything tht is in my life now...
is wrong....big wrong wrong...big no no...

ok...i m picking up to be more mean more heckcare....
less nice......totally cool..hahahaha

sometime pple around influence you with their life of story...
its reallli confusing if you just fell them...and you get into their life...of story....
incrediblely dumb....weird....f*** up...
when u get into the story...
u just feel so much when u see things tht is in their story tht in some way it affect you...

its dumb...stupidly dumb...
me...stupidly dumb....
retarded....

for now...i think f*** it is the word...
i m just going to heck it...its no use to think and pounder bout it...althought things do affect you in some way...

i m gonna snip my hair,....
tomolo ....i guess...if i could wake up...ahahah.......

lets see changes in my life will affect the whole overall outcome....

leopard never change it spots...lets just see....

i m going to take my bike liscence...yea!!!but i doubt my mum will allow...
lets jst see....there is always someone call dad...ahahaha.

there is so much things tht i wanna shout out...
i wanna talk bout....but there is so much confusion in me ...
knowing things wont just the way u wan it to be....or hope to be....
but stupid just wanna try....try.try.try.try....

fuck u tim tam...!
hate you to the max....
oh...if anyone who read this wanna know who is it...
i might intro to you...
the fuck tup bitch of the yr...ahahah!!!!

bleedingkubeX

2006-11-18T01:14:00.000+08:00

ignore me on this post.

ok..y doesnt god made us hv this thing called cofusion...
everyone get confuse of certain thing...well the others...hmm..as well..ahahah
but its so irritating..
friend being confused of wat they wan...
and some...something tht is not worth gettting confuse on.

i m like so confuse of wad i wan now...
life jus doesnt rox.
its so hard to live on...every night...
i willl be thinking of wad i realli wan.
bout so many things...
its so ..irrtating...
like totally dot com..

i just saw someone nick like...
c.....o..n.f....u.s...e....d.

sensitive is a stupid issue in me...as well...
always...

fuck off...this word hurts in a certain way...
like seriously..
dun wanna bring up the issue but just imagine in wad situation when someone say fuck off...
how will u feel...
iu m just wondering...

let go or not.?
let it be?
its not gng to happen aniway...its like....90% is confirm.
98% is a might not happen.
so wad for.
tim-tam....u r such a lucky ass..
seriously...
if u dun take it seriously...
i m gng to bitch slap you.

let the devil out.
angel in the morning.
devil out at night.
boy.i m so gng to maake you confuse
jus wait and see...

anione?
teach me how to be mean?

kube.X back.

2006-11-17T07:48:00.000+08:00

ok...i m back...finally...
school is overr....
assessment is over!!!

ahahahaa!!!funally...

ok...but its kinda bored now...like seriously...
2 mth of holiday...i dun know wad to do expect to work work work...shd i get another exra job...

oh ya...wanna comment bout something...
sometime u work at a certain place...u love it...
cause there was so much fun...
but after u left everything changes...true enuf..the fun pple is no linger around...
but this is a new badge of pple...
its diff....
i mean jokes are also diff...
u dun grow into it cause u dun grow with the pple here...
cause u had alreadi left....
so u feel tht this pple is boring...
i will nvr come back again...
but sometime work its not just onli bout fun...
and u dun know what is gng on in the work plae...
so u cant say its boring...its so dead..
its just diff...
u just have to be cool bout u left the place and u dun get to know pple from here anymore...
so dun say its boring....
jus comment....:)

anyway...yea....my life is like diff now...i dun know...just diff...
hmm...interesting i guess..ahahaa...but it will hur if too much consideration is put into it...
haiz...how interesting...
i cant believe tht i stop because of jokes tht was gng around and dares from other friend..
ahahahaa!!!

ok...i m like talking to myself...so dun bother bout reading it...!!

there is alot of pple i wanna meet....
sam,kim,derrick,indra,regina,fadz,all cindy,so many....
i miss ya guys~

kiongz life

2006-10-29T07:28:00.000+08:00

ok....wads the t pple...
ahaha..
okok...
i m under alot of stress...
school work is getting me crazy...like seriously....
i m gonna faint...
so many things undone..and i hv to finish it in 2 days times...
this is bad!!!!

however...after that...holidays!!!!
yea!!!
hehee....i love working now...
i mean there is so much thing i look forward in working...
getting into the bar soon...
yeah!!!...
and also ....there are new pple...who reali makes my life interesting....more...now!
i m looking forward towards wads the change s of someone...and also for myself...
like...i got things to busy with...
but i m enjoying wad i m gonna busy with...cause thats wad i wan...

pple changes....
always...
al the time....
yeayeayea....i m also the hot tempered guy in school...the small little king tht bully pple...
like seriously...!!
but now....i m not that hot tempered animore...everything....change...
maybe its better...

kelvin change alot...!!realli...!!good and bad.!!
see for yaeself pple....ciao!~!

reality check

2006-10-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

okaaayyyyy.....this is getting more confusing as the days goes....
like seriously.....

i got tons of stuff to finish up by the end of the week.....
got so much things in my mind...
something...there would be like a few thing in your life that u need to choose...
when it comes to 3 things...
or ttally not at all...
i would be so afraid to choose from wad i realli need to do...
this is totally shitttttty!

reality check,er hmm is yea...
but i do realli want...
second...reality check,its not tht bad...but not the one.?
third.reality check,is,but confused i guess.
oh nooooooo!!!!
like seriously...what m i going to do.......

haiz....i m losing it.....someone help me....or give me some spell....
or some magic power..
or thing tht i can do ....
likein charmed......
like make my life to be a littlte more wonderful....
tht will be seriously better!!!...

i m waiting for it to happen.....just if its like wade..
and noah.
to chance.
and eddie....

onli one person will understad this blog.....alexis....ahaha...
if u r reading it...i will kill you!!!!help me bitch...

gosh..!

2006-09-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

things are slightly better now..everything eems to be right on track except schoolwork...-_-''',,,thats the killer!!i hv tons of work to complete...its so stressful la....thanks ar derrick...say its gonna be fun...fun my ass la!!!ahahaha...

anyway..i m still at work place...inside kitchen blogging...so hungry la...

nxt week is one week break...as if there is break...break like no break...still hv to go school for lesson..
stay home at finish up work...got so many thing to catch up..suck!!!
pple...dun ever come to lasalle....
unless you wan fun...ahaha
stress...
not this skool.!!they are mad la...hahaha...

anyway...i not too sure what to blog...so i m jus gonna stop here...
tc....see ya

invaded outerspace

2006-09-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

hello...i m back...after such a long time...yes i know...
i m currently at work now using my labby...
so how's life...

erm nth....been busy with school...school work is killing me..
think hv to cut down my sleeping hours and working hours i guess....
after hearing wad fel is doing bout maintaining her school and work...
like woooOo....

we both know each other for 4 6 yrs...
suprise!!!
ya...we r both working in night life....
but i m not working my life right....
alothough what she is doing is damn tiring but i guess is know wad she is doing...
so thts fine...
and after all ...she is earning for what she is using...so....
yea....

today went back to school....gosh...HAPPENING!!!
ahahaha...
after our yr did the dance for bth band concert and teachers day...
this yr...
voommmmmmm!!!1!
so many daNCE grp....and it all so hilarious...
i mean yea....kids...dun expect much...just watch and hv fun ....
ahahaha
yup...so baracuda was there....thts when band member get high....
nvr fail in every yr...ahha...
oh well...i realli do enjoy...and i cant believe this is like the last yr we r gonna do tht man...
school is gonna merge....damn blastier....

oh wel...some pple might be shock tht how i change but after today...its a different me again...
i just hope it works....let see yea...

hmm....work...
suxs....
i jus like cant get over what my collegue...the supervisor wannabe said...

imagine your manager ask you to stay back last week to help him with cashier because there was no bartender at the moment...
and this supervisor wannabe today was like.....
'oh...cash arh?'
'ya.'
'ok...i do...onli me and s*** can touch the cashier...if not short at the end of the day...it will be shit!!'

i was like.....huh....wtf....
hey...u r not even a known supervisor la...pls la...
and u think u r a bartender...come on mn...dun bitch around with me at the work place...
i m like the most bitchies person u can find here....dun mess with me....

then my manager was like...
eh...dun wanna go home arh...10 alreadi..no pple...u can go la...since u 'pang seh' on tue...
i was like...
iwas realli tired and busy la...
u dun expect your worker to be as energetic...
dammn.....
i know he was joking...but i wasnt...
i m taking this seriously...
like...wtf la....

at this moment...i m so stress...
so lost...
so annoy...
so clueless bout someone...
so fustrated bout what is happening...
so restless in what i m doing...

i feel so reluctant to work now...to me...is like...
fuck la...work....work...work...

wanna get into main bar also like cannot...dun dare to ask...tomolo got 2 new bartender coming...
i'm gonna make them suffer man...!!
i see how long can they last....i jus wanna learn something else....
what i realli wan rather then just seving pple....
no wonder so many pple quit...
they just dun see the reason y pple r quiting...!!!

oh...well...
so heres my plan..
gonna chiong my work during this two week..slowly hack bout work..then when i can balace with wha i m doing...
i m gonna ask for bar....
11 days to 8 mth...
by the 9 or 10(if i got the patience)...
i dun get what i wan...i m gonna quit...
gonna stop wasting my time here...seriously...
i could hv take fel offer and work at her bar...to gain some bar experience...
damn..>!!!!!okok!!!
i think its time to ge back to work....

i m missing you...

you make me feel so new...

u r not making me wan this...

u r so undecisive...the word is care....tht all is needed...

i wan to know you...

i hope you r...ahaha...impossible...

fuck off!!

think bout it....

be cool bout myself....ciao~!

heck-tic

2006-07-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

today is the day where i feel tired working....
gotta set up the floor and the bar...stock came in...wrong stock..
wa....faint....

after doing the bar...this grp of pple....with the bosses...
came in with about 20 over pple...close to 30...
i was all alone...
BAIK ARH!!!

be4 tht...jamie teo came in....wanted cooffee...but we dun serve..
so she left...with an ang-moh...
then after tht terence cao came in....
celebrities...reallli dun drink....
as in drink tht contain liqour...

after tht.....
my regular customer came in with this cute angmoh girl....she was from sydney....
gosh...sweet....ahaha!!

arh!!!
my manager pinch my nips and i was like wtf...
and he was laughing his ass off...
then 'bapoks' cant stop touching and disturb me...keep asking me to go home with them...
ew!!!
but they r nice pple...

'blue' jealous jelly

2006-07-02T08:34:00.000+08:00

things has been changing....
in life and work...
not veri happy wad is happening...i wan to do this ....
but i m not given opprtunity to do this...
other has given the opprtuninty...
this is simply shit!!!
pretty jealous...but i dun wanna make a big fess out of it...
arh!!!!

full of jealousy~!

see...many pple in this world has alreadi succeed and have a career~!
and wad....they r younger than us...
i know we r in different region so expectation are diff...
but look...
omarion~!how old..how great is his dance.his body?~
chris brown~how talented is he in singing and song writing..~!
bow wow...his rapping...singing?
beyonce~full of talent since 8..

wad m i/we doing?~
studying-_-'''....doing nth....

so is god really fair...?

kiong the 'BIARCH"

2006-06-21T04:29:00.000+08:00

so long since i blog...anyway...no one will see...
just to pour out my daily life..
working my ass off..

school is gonna start soon...how i wish there was no skool....i m so into working now..

oh well...
schoolday..everything bout me is....captain ball...
thts bout it....right gil?
AHAHAHA

now is work work work....
spanish food..drinks.baileys.vodka.stoli.drumbuie.more more

i work too much...and i m missing alot of pple....
dunno working in bar/night life mean got life or no life....

anyway...ba-poks getting more and mroe in chijmes...it doesnt turn me off..
just seems to be interesting as more starts to appear...
AHAHAHHA...
from all over the country and all kinds of looks...

from paris hilton to coffee shop auntie...
how interesting...

tends to see things in a diff way...
jus a comment....
things in life is not bout taking and giving...
sex...is not a issue i wish to involve a this time....
is everyone life in this circle is all bout sex....getting laid...
and hving unprotected sex..?
childish thinking bout how to be together with someone by hving a baby..
sad to say...sorry....its jus always the same race...
no tht i m racist....but it a fact....
i get so turn off...by the issue...

u wan something..work for it...
not by giving something and thot that everything will be yours.
live it the way u shld be...the normal way....
not the tuf way...

cao~

'fever-ed' hair.style.

2006-06-02T04:51:00.001+08:00

gosh...i cant believe it...
as i hv told ain...k*** has come to my work place and interview..
i was like....ahhh!!!f***
his look+hair!!!*drowl*(ok...being too gay...zip)
i hope he is being employed!!!

anyway...i hving disturbed comment by my colleague..
but i dont take it seriously...so wadever...

its kinda true...c.h.j.i.m.e.s is so ful of diff pple...
like...
ba-poks....
and i was attracted by some of the ba-poks

as in not me...but they think tht i m cute..
AHHHAHAH....its ok if a girl come and tell me this...
but its a ....erm ...yea...

comment-(kevin!you attract wrong grp of pple la)

oh well...wad to do...
more to come...
sunday...yea...holiday!

'fever-ed' hair.style.

2006-06-02T04:51:00.000+08:00

mama-san

2006-05-25T03:25:00.000+08:00

today was pretty tiring...out of a sudden.....

slam!!!
my gosh....one guy quit and daphne work up late..

maybe sometime its just...me...
i cant stand pple slack for work...
i could just remember i quarrel with one of my colleague...
i dun know y...mayb i expect too much...

sometimes when u asked for something...
do it...
dont slack it...
u wan it...show tht u really wan...
don like...haiz ya...wa...so much to do ...wan me to die arh?!

live up to yourself...
make up to wad you asked for...

after work went 'insomnia'....fifa was like someone buying me drink...
lets go ...u will get one too!....
being a bit peiseh....went there...the mama-san asked her wad she wan...
nt forgetting me...following at the back...so innocent..
asked me wad i wan...
i was too peiseh to ask...so i said....
ANYTHING!!!

be4 leavingg....know a few girls of the mama san...super friendly and funny...
and the girl request upon a good bye kiss..
ang moh style la...
so i kinda mis-aim and she moved..she i was kissing directy on her cheek...not face to face...
gosh!!!!!freak out and peiseh...faster get out of tht place...
ahahaha....

came back...head ache..
wonder tomolo what m i gonna do be4 work...haiz...

hot but att.
friendly but not much interested.
in love but rejected.

screaming!!! orgasm...

2006-05-21T04:19:00.000+08:00

oh...well....it realli suck...
first taste...ok la....second...my gosh...
continuious 3rd and 4th....i almost puke...
somemore dap was in front of me...

there is no base...
jus a mixture of everything...
cannot make it...

anyway...was there to see my cutie...
but seriously...
after a few time ...
i get sick...espcially today...

tomolo.hog's breathe...
nxt sunday...
girls....i m 200 bucks poorer....

i m gng for holiday!!!

hoe-ley

2006-05-20T04:27:00.000+08:00

i woke up...ate...
found out i got missed call from my colleague...
thot want something good...as usual...
and it realli is...
oh well..

i just dun get it when u do all such sstuff to make the whoel world start worrying for you..
pretty lame and irritating...
jump of the building if you wan...
.f-u-c-k off....

anyway....i realli wanna do something bout my hai ...but i dun knnoe how to deal withit....
its irritating because its start its wavy thingy again...not veri bad but..
makes you er!!!

dun knoe wad to say...so lost....
hiax.
nite all

brain cells killer

2006-05-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

i feel tht i m dying young....dun know y...ahaha...there is too much reason...

anyway...went to sentosa on wed...
total waste of time cause sun keep gng and coming.
went to town....slack...as in esplanade town...not orchard....

i m gonna do something bout my hair...but dunno wad to do...
tomolo...!!!

suddenly no interest in blogging.

sign out
emo kid.

flick ash.

2006-05-13T05:11:00.000+08:00

hair is longer.
lazi to cut.
dunno wad to do with it.

but nt realli tht long.
just wanna keep it longer.

thot i could save this.but i cant make it on tht day
so things goes and i will see.
i wan to be like wht we used to be

i cant let go.y u doing this to me.

pple realli change.like me
kiongz.
out

unfound soul

2006-05-11T08:09:00.000+08:00

2nd post...hehe...

sometimes..pple feel tht i m too

-emo

well,today i learn bout something...left-y(left handers)
always think alot....
they take a very long time to realli think of what they realli want...
once they hv decide....no one can change their mind...
not even the president....

i mean...this is what is going thru my head now.
some of you might laugh...like wtf!
but everything i consider about do make a big change after i hv made my dicision

-moving out -hving a car
-sexual orientation?ahaha(maybe nt) -my friends

this is something bad....cause like...i consider too much bout my life.
and my friends.till tht something i will lose something or someone.

oh well.....nvm...i will die young;)...using too much of my brain cells..soon la...

kiong

"lost" anxiety

2006-05-11T07:58:00.000+08:00

i cant slp..
not hving insomnia..
just freaking cant get to slp...
i m too awake...!!

and i onli slpt for an hour....

645....this time its the time tht i will simply be awake no matter what time i sleep...

i m gonna go to ikea(i think) ltr.to get some stuff....my gosh..
some of you would know i had move house like so long ago.
but something u guys doesnt know.
my room is undone.-means--->in a mess

anyway...i m damn lost...
in my own world..
people r skooling...
i m still stuckk in night life...

i had change..not or the better...ahaha...
so when u guys meet me...dun be surprise...

here is a list of pple i missssssssss like hell....
-indra!
-derrick
-sam
-kim
-reg
-mich
-mel
-quite alot...just cant remember...

-CAPTAIN BALL!

chao

bleeding wound

2006-05-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since i blog...

been working..
so dun realli hv time to blog..
my life nw is just work slp work slp.
AHAHAH...

anyway...there was a function at my workplace....again...
it was some salsa dancing thingy..

i would actually spend another 10.50 to go watch Take The Lead.
then to watch them at work...
sometime not we wanna say...singapore standard for everything is...
CANNOT MAKE IT!
almost everything.

its been a while since i meet dap.
went to chill out.talk bout something we woudnt thot of a few yrs backs.
AHAHA..
its realli happy to see her grow...i mean like...
from sec 1...tht cock face...change to this pretty girl here.

soon i m gonna to do a pic of her.i mean the past and the present.

sometime i m realli dump.... to stuck with just one friend...
i m too emo at times..but still... just cant satisfy me..
just not understanding me enuf la...
i bought a *** for you but you like..ok lor..
helloo...its like a *bomb...y cant u treat me better if its like a *bomb...
simply not appreciating it....i hate you!fucker!

nite all...
AHAHA
kiongZ

back from outerspace...

2006-04-01T06:27:00.001+08:00

been long since i last blog...hmm

so many things happen...which i cant be bother to say...

interesting-

this ang moh was smoking in my work place..walk pass her....she swing down her cig...to her laps and i got burn ..!!!lucky i was wearing my uniform...

the funny thing was that i almost wanted to shout...bitch...u burn my tits!!but i just...shut up and walk away...ahaha....

so many things changes...i dun know were my ex classmates are gng to wad skool...so long since i catch up with them

u r making me feel irritated and i just wan the 'old' you back!

back from outerspace...

2006-04-01T06:27:00.000+08:00

been long since i last blog...hmm

so many things happen...which i cant be bother to say...

interesting-

this ang moh was smoking in my work place..walk pass her....she swing down her cig...to her lapsi walk pass her and she burn me..!!!lucky i was wearing my uniform...

the funny thing was that i almost wanted to shout...bitch...u burn my tits!!but i just...shut up and walk away...ahaha....

so many things changes...i dun know were my ex classmates are gng to wad skool...so long since i catch up with them

u r making me feel irritated and i just wan the 'old' you back!

back from outerspace...

2006-03-07T04:31:00.000+08:00

ok...i m back...for more....recap of some event.

staff party...
i was drunk but high....my manager was like damn bloody high and all of them start to like strip and do their bar top dancing....shocked!!!!i drunk like 2 to 3 jar....dun know wad la...ahaha....but i wasnt drunk...and gotta take careof four drunk babies...brought one to hotel....strip him and let him rest ...

jae result...
be honest...i din got in to any of the course i choose...i dun know y ....but i dun realli care...cause i hv accepted by lasalle....thru the interview....ya....but i still wanna get into a poly badly...

today
this group of pple was celebrating theor friends birthday...and it was so damn messy....cakes all around....liqour...drinks....my god...and i wasthe onli who is taking care of the inside situation....it was fun though....not the cleaning part....ya...so..this two guys actually bought a vodka blue from us and some red bull mixer...which he din finish....they was realli nice...asking me whether i wanna drink...but i cant cause i was on shift...talk to them...and they are on a business trip....

in 2 weeks...they earn 2.6 millions!!!i was like!!!@-@!!!

work
working in chijmes let me see diff pple from diff places....i hv made like a few friends from england...denmark...sweden...realli nice pple...veri polite pple...pple in chijmes...is fun and interesting....but tiring...

ok...thats bout it...nite...

wad i hv done

2006-02-16T04:33:00.000+08:00

1st:JAE Application
2nd:Lasalle Application
3rd:NAFA Application(hving a prob with it)
4th:JPSAE(not done)

this is what u need to prepare to do if u hv a bad result.also.

10 pieces of-drawing,sketches
- 2-d work(painting,print making,digital imaging)
-3-d work(scuplture,ceramic)

and

pray.

haiz

2006-02-15T04:41:00.000+08:00

work today was so stressful...yet fun...i dun know....everything was so messed up....as usual...ya....but lucky i din have any ran away tab from my station....so its ok....tomolo free day...gonna do my port folio alreadi!!!.....

i was touch...

everything i said...the pple i hv mention...to christy...er!!ahahaha....christy...i got so much to tell u after like 2 hours away from you

stab me

2006-02-14T04:00:00.000+08:00

today was high stress...okla...not realli....tomolo i dun know wads gng to happen...

sometimes...i realli take things for granted....but thats my fucking att...i dun know whether is it good or bad...

i m stupid...

u dun look at blogs...so i hv the right to say here....anyway....its just so irritating...i jus cant decide to meet you or wad....like...your words is still...u know..but i dun realli bother bout that anymore..so...ya

thinking....wad school...course...although i hv applied....but....nvm...forget it...

not being myself sign out

shut up

2006-02-13T05:26:00.000+08:00

i din fell great bout my result...is fucking like shit...i just have to work out what to do now...

i miss person A...
but person A has the nick on msn...showing as if * got the suckiest result...but in the end...person A's grades was quite good...it was totallly diff from wad person A said in the online journal and the msn nick...wad...trying to show off?!bloody fcuker...

slap me!!real hard!!!i wanna be awake...

its just so hard for me...i just wanna run away .... i wanna to get to somewhere for a while ...where no one can find me..or contact me....

fading away...nite

8 hrs more

2006-02-10T04:01:00.000+08:00

ya....the heading....wonder y no one is online....is like...everyone is soundly asleep?thats weird!!ok...gues i dun hv to say so much bout how i feel...see the link...of my friend's blog...yatoday wrk was fun...i wonder bout tomolo....wad i will do and feel..lets seeeee........................................................

stress makes me sad

2006-02-09T04:23:00.000+08:00

today was going pretty well...went out with wendy and wiki....something just pisses me off...i could not stand it....er!!!but....nevermind...dun care...dun bother....work start....

thats was the worse....i did something that was so wrong.stupid me....den the second time again.... sometimes i think things that people do wrong do scold....cause the person will end up like nvr learn...and finish the task for the sake of it...

so i sort of like said back to someone for something i not realli hv done wrong....den everything was back to normal....

laviva seems to be a high stress job...or maybe i not expose to work that much after all?dunno...

we had wine after work...
ahahah...

den i think my manager was kinda high....i said by and he give me a flying kiss...i was like......................................................................................oh...by the way....he is married.....den he came and touch me!!!!and i freaking scared of itch....so i just walk off...den he stop...den he mention he's a trisexual.....

THIS IS SOMETHING NEW!!!!
Trisexual.....a person who love...man...woman....ANIMAL!!!so...its like!!!

but i know they was joking....so....who cares....they always disturb me....nvm....this is laviva...

result.....

work work work

2006-02-08T03:22:00.001+08:00

ok...today i was late for opening...dun know y...i slp and din realise...if wiki call i din wanna pick up till i notice that i suppose to do opening today....so took a rush down...panic...!!And lotsa thing was screwed...the side station...suddenly no strength and all the cutlery drop...haiz...so peiseh..lucky not much pple...if not i will stunt there...

then the system broke down...everything have to be done munually....as in calculation of every customer damage...yeah...but lucky it wasnt me...ahaha....

then...i was like being make fun...by my manager...

nick:ni de lao pou le(where is your wife)
me:shuai?(who)christy ah.?
nick:qian bian ah!(wanna kanna wack ah)
me:wiki?!
nick...ya!
me:-_-'''in the kitchen ............eating.......

Since when!!!!OH PLS!!!!!

then ltr they say my ass. manager like me...ask me to be becareful...and he!!!!is a guy!!!pls!!!

siao!!overall...mistakes i hv was like nvr ending....dunno y..... result coming soon...on fri...which i think i will like nervous till i can shit on the spot...i still like quite relax...for now la!!

ok.....new blogskin...i need time to do my own...this is "kop" one...

pround of my cousin....maybe u shld take a look at her blog...http://www.whatanuncoollife.blogspot.com

trying to make myself busy tomolo...so gotta slp early.....ya.....335 now...real early....!!!chao~!

y

2006-01-30T03:37:00.000+08:00

happy new year!!

today woke up so late...like not new year like that...i was at home and my mum alreadi went to my grand's house...i went there...collect angpow....then i chao ...ahaha...went to work la...sianz....today is like no people at all...not at all la...like ....we are paid to stand there for exhibition...everyone was so tired....cause no one till everone became crappy...jus heard that dap quit laviva....sian....christy will quit soon too...then left 2 monkshllian....sianz....i hope my live there will be still perfect if they really like quit...tomorrow no work again...yea!!

back

2006-01-26T03:41:00.000+08:00

back from work...today been a real fuck tup day...

din prepare for interview...

late...for work...nearly got screwed....

work start...tiring..messy...dunno whats happening....got screwed by our drunk big boss manager which i onli knew him today...

everyone start curse and swear when they come to the keying in the stuff...

get the table move again back to where it suppose to be...but it still in a mess!!!....super heavy...

best!!!tomolo i do opening....had to get eerything done...which is table...candle...chairs...menu...system...side station...bins...boards....my life is screwed this few days...

if anyone realli hate me so much...after u see this...please use a sharp knife to kill me

d

2006-01-24T07:07:00.000+08:00

look who's back....me...

its now 7 in the morning...i m gng off to sleep..jus came back...work...eat...

sometime i dun know whether if laviva's peepz trustable...i dun know...hope it will be...i will be back to change my everything....blog i mean...now...chao...sleep

my life is short....lets countdown...

fsdf

2005-11-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday morning..went to caro house to study...we jus cant stop digging for food....ahaha...den after that we went to rumbia..at sengkang...near her hse to fetch terence...as usual...super late...i had to catch my 3 in 1 meal...terence start nagging which realli get on my nerves...i jus feel like slapping him..had some conflict be4 we got home...

came back home and terence went str. to slp!!wad is this...study la damn it!!!but who cares...i jus keep studying...den next was carol...cannot tahan anymore..so went to slp...can u imagine...i was alone in darkness...with onli candle...then the toilet door open and closed for a few time...!!i think it was air pressure la...who cares!!so after studyingtill bout 6 in the morning..i went to slp ...till bout 10....wonderful!!breakfast by carol...!!it was all egg....french toast,scramble egg,egg,wadever-_-'''....i think i m starting to have a tummy ache soon..ok after that terence left...and we study again...den slack..watch tv....ahaha...den came home....

sengkang pple...no comment...saw this fat bald ah beng...on his music so loud that even i m listening to my own music...i can hear his...and guess wad he is listening to...techno!!and he cant help it but too shake his fats to the music...everyone in the lrt was like..wtf?!

den ltr when he get down...he say this gal..and he was stunned....the gals was holding on to a radio player...those normally we use when we go to beach!!ahaha!!!lame....

today-so weird!

aaa

2005-11-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

woke up late again...this is seriously not good...haiz...how man...i still got so much things not cleared...haiz...i m realli panicking...damn...

i seem to lose a lot of thing...no matter how i find i still cant..

i hate pple to decide things for me....please let me do it myself...i will decide all this thing by my own....thanks!*piss*

wad

2005-11-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

f### you !!i hate you!!wads wrong with u la..damn it.>!!er!!!!aw!!!!!!!!!!ah!!!!!!get away...u suck!!!!!!!

aahaha

2005-10-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

i m starting to get nervous....its in a week time...i not even thinking bout the fun after that cause i know i will gotta work(which i hate the most,oh well,for the sake of money.and trying to be a rich 'designer'i hope.)..

its in a week and i hardly know anything bout what i hv study.i m freaking out at this moment...i flunk my chi...no more a2 or a1...jus either stay as b4 or b3(hoping that the moderation will be damn unexpected*for the best)...

ok...i have plan a hectic schedule for myself.for tomolo onwards.real hectic...i dun care what i m gonna look like.i jus wanna study hard for this....hope i can have my own house back for now!damn it!..

ok.i think i gonna find a real place to study...day and night.no one could touch me.jus somewhere.m.i.a.?ahaha...considering...

hit the sack.wake up early.study!!!its a brand new day..!!!hope that i could do what i had plan for myself...

wohoo...-_-'''

haiz

2005-10-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

sat-home study
sun-home.study.out.chengliang and shui sheng.dinner...back ..study...sleep
mon-stuppid mt ppr.sucks.demoralise.flunk .again.seriously bad.cannot make it.fuck.slap me.bite me.pls.

damn

2005-10-29T21:36:00.000+08:00

what is happening to me....i jus cant figure out whether is it me or you...ridiculous...currently...we are like getting having stupid disagreement everyday...and its dumb although things doesnt seemto be that serious after all....but still...

oh nothing else more..jus hv a stupid arguement with my mum....she lost in the end by talking to me in a better way...

overall today is a bad day...damn it....i cant study today....total waste of time...dun wanna study at home...it suxs totally...

something came to my mind...wad m i gonna do on my bdae?with who?cause i hv lotsa conflicts with pple...not in good term...see bout it...yea.?loner boi

blabla

2005-10-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

last day of school.i had ebjoy it all.its a place where i nvr ever regret going.although.i think mhss was my first choice and i hate it..but...now..i'm loving it...i love mhss....and obviously...mhmb..always...no matter what happen...what is the state now...realli....its a place that let me realise what is growing up..mhss is a place.where i know how to love.know there is actually someone i know this yr which walk into my life so much.i hv no regret knowing u.although things were still in a bad state.but.i always.love ya?!...ya..

mhss.mhmb.a place where i learn and love.

after school played captain ball...this game make me see how united our class it.'united'...i mean.seriously.i saw you.u made me upset.u just carry on with your thingy...and dun care bout what is happening at the other side.bunch of idiots.seriously.

i jus hope u regret what u hv done...i learn to forget you.everything u do.!damn it!f** u....

BAND IS REALLI IN A TERRIBLE STATE...i really wanna breakdown when i ee my band..it feel like it is my fault.i din lead the band well.i did not incultivate them with enough discipline like ina.ina i m seriously sorry.i screwed up the band..bring u down...there is nth i can do.i feel terrible

went to have lunch with indra jo jeffrey yun jin and gill...den we meet randall...den we went to had lunch together.....then i went off to meet cindy....den i saw syhfiq*...den behind i saw milzam.den i meet alicia cindy and yi ting.my old clck.the smart asses...caught back some old time.talks...interesting....den went shopping....den too tired.came home...and they hv been nagging me to study....NAGGERS!!er!!!

i hate you.but i love you.i cant stop thinking of you.its true.i m stuck on you

bla bla

2005-10-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

stuppppid explorer....it is damn spoilt now and i cANt fix it...it just keep poping out pop up...keep asking me to repair without telling me how...damn it...er!!

ok...i m glad i study physic today....
and suprisely...i did account!!!it was rather easy to understand for onli that question...but when come to the next...damn!!er!!
okok...gng to study chinese now...wohoo-_-'''...

tata

2005-10-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

bad day.i see so much things.fakers.haiz.wtd.drawing thingy...freaking pro.rain.soak.realise.i dun wan you.dun need you to be there.U R JUST A PASSER-BY.(maybe onli this way,i will forget you,for everything).F***off.hate you.but sometimes.i cant.confuses.stress.dun wan wad to do.study.sucks.stuck.damn.buck up.

12 days left to first prr!!!!!freaking fast.
6 days to chi ppr!!!even faster.

worried subject*
-combined humanities(realli dun know how to study for it
-sciences..can make it.but den.dun know..ahaha...worried
-accounts!!!

i realli dun know how to deal with you

bbb

2005-10-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

haiz..back to where i m ...square one...ok..lets review what i study today

math-1 topic(redspot)
physic-some..1 or 2..back to chpt 1 and 2 to memorize...
chi-glance thur.marking things that dun understand..
social studies-half a chpt on housing.trying ALL ways to study..mindmaps..blablabla...

ok.thats bout it...
its was not productive to me...haiz...die la...i m like wasting time...dunno wad i gonna do for my 'o's.....gotta really plan backwards now...okok...gtg...slp...

i regret...i realli wan you...the way we use to be

aaaa

2005-10-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

seriously confused.i dun know what to do.y i wanna treasure u so much.u r just a simple friend.i dun know.i hate.realli.for bring me so far.for letting to see so much things.but u hurt me.sad.headache...hate you

wadever

2005-10-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

awake.study.mad.crazy.confused.agony.sucks.fake.no hope.its over.damn.fuck.y.over.forget it.done.dun even think bout it.idiot.sad.damn.pain.

ggg

2005-10-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

fast today.break fast with jannah and company...ahaha...it was a nice day...had alot of fun...stress free...once a week...not bad ...ahaha...took quite alot of pic..freaking like crazy pple....running around...ahaha...

look like i need a online photo album...soon!!!
after exam~!-_-'''

i see a glimsp of light..a little glow...a little thingy on the birght side...i dun know what u said is refering to what think...but i hope is the thing that i see...nvr be able to convince you bout our problem....u know and heard....but u the mentioning bout gng back to where we are...is all a lie...its always someone else that can convince you..not me...i m not sad or what...but is just that...what u said to me is jus a simple lie that make me pounder so much things...hope things change be4 its too late...

another stupid day

2005-10-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

today practical was screwed!!!

anyway...this week...saw alot of new faces..new side of pple...

to someone out there:jus that i realise...u...u like to think that i like to jump to conclusio...maybe?i dun realli know bout this...bout what i know for sure is that...u always think that i have something against u...i DUN HATE...ok?the most is dislike...but then sometime what u do...just make me rethink of what u said to me much more earlier be4 it happen...i mean...are u mentioning or doing all this thingy because we are like different grp of friend?i dun know what u r thinking but...u know...u shld just rephrase every fucking things u say la....ya?

to someone(2) out there:hmmm...u!!i dun know la...there is such a big distance between us....as in being compared la...u know...sometime i feel that u r like running away...i mean there is seriously nth to be afraid rite....m i so scary seriously....its like damn ridiculous la...when i see how u react to me...today....i think i wont forget what i saw and feel...i might nt be right la...but that this is how i feel...there is no wrong to feel something that i dun actually know right...yeah

i m not THINKING TOOOOOOOO MUCH......OK!!

yeah

2005-10-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

hmm...nth much today...i also dun know where to start..ahaha...anyway...tried fasting...nth much actually...but i realise something good bout it....which is link to my studies...so..ahaha...i m gonna try out more often...yeah!!!anyway....practical on this thur...getting nerveous...i dun realli do well in all this adding here and there....bla bla bla. thing....u know...irritating shit...but still...haiz...

SOMEONE describe me as a rose....ahaha...but i dun think it os le...maybe not...is just what u see in me...u haven see my inner beauty!!!aw!!!!thank u thank u...muackz muackz...!!

i cant stand the fakeness...the arrogant look....the ...wadever thingy going on in your brain..turn me off..!!!yucks...fakers!!!

day

2005-10-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

19 days left!!!

intensive mugging..

nerd~!

terrible

2005-10-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

i think i freaking waste my weekend...and i m feeling damn terrible about it....sat...yes i did study...but not remembering everything...that was the worst....sun...yesterday...as usual...half a day gone due to sleeping..damn it....yes...den onli study like a bit...the rest was packing....and i went out fr a chalet....i shouldnt have go..cause it seems like to be a waste of time and stuff...but...i had fun..came back home at 4 plus..nearly 5....slp till now...230pm...wasted so much time again...haiz..forget it..wad done is done...jus hope that this weekend will be more progressive...22 days....to first ppr...

blogger-talk to themselve?

-wan pple to know bout them?

-attract attention?

fuck

2005-10-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

stupid you..fuck..can u like stop thinking...i mean seriously...y u care so much...if its not meant to be den dun care bout it animore...there is like no pt to get jealous rite...u r just making urself like a fool la...come on man...u shld have said...i hate ***...y din u ...say out everything...den u dun hv to worry...y bother so much when pple dun even care bout u..for wad...u think like breakingdoen..doing stupd things...is worth it...comeon man...u just dun know wad pple might think of you...y r u being so dumb....stupid know u....dun care so much la....fine...if they nvr say ormention...den dun care...do something to make ***jealous..seriously...sad no more...fuck them all..be strong....go to the bridge to relax...get some rest...but obviously u need to study.....get yourself a new life...realli...dun care...dun bother...

u have band mates...is just a matter of time..due to exam...they care bout u...not like the others....who cares!!!rite?!

hate list/(u just make me pounder and feel sad)
-ccihnedyn(lier!!!!)
-slauhrh(faker)
-penguin
-xiaopang?!(ass)

there is no need to be sad about...
you always have yourself...
it will be over soon...realli
its time to block!!!

bad day

2005-10-15T14:24:00.000+08:00

cause we had a bad day....after school chiiong back home..slack and rest and play game for a while...den chiong to mee...erhmm*...fauzi....den study study study ...but i think nothing went inside my brain....so...waste of time....ya....but at least i study to make myself understand den ltr jus spend time memorizing it....ya...so after that...cant decide wher to go...den jus took a bus to anywhere...end up at town...so drop off....den we had dinner...breakfast.....den after that..walk around...looking at labtop...psp...den went kino....i bought sudoku!!!yeah!!!sudoku fever!!!ahaha...then after that went to esplanade...yeah...saw daphne!!den fadzil shui sheng danny rose.wenbin...bla bla bla..and so one..soe npcb pple....yeah..as usual...not so good la..u kno...embarass..and stupid shui sheng...better watch wad u say..damn ass!!ya...and go out also nvr call me!!!!huh wad is this!!!!but who cares..nvm..better call me nxt time....!!!i tell u!!ahaha....

ok then went to take some pic...funny la...den sit down at the esplanade...the...wads that pace call...i dun know....somewhere at the concert hall..o..b4 that went to the merlion...den walk back...freaking tiring...den after that went to had ice cream...!den walk to bus stop...damn ...miss my last bus...so have to walk home and now my leg is aching...but enjoyable...so...its ok....ahaha...

exams coming...stress
23 day left

one day less

2005-10-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

bored.tired.sleepy.hardworking.sleepy.tired.sian.happy.funny.joker.kiss.indra.paper.pic time.vien.retake.smile.cheese.camera.action.nw.snap.slow.crash.cold.warm.bored.knowledge.hyper.run.recess.jump.eat.homeroom.geo.sian.super ultra hot.blur.gossip.angry.bastard.hate it..idiot.too bad..not understanding.get away.leave.rain.smell.cool.video.joke.happy.stunned.hyper.smile.better.love.enjoy.happiness.touch.different.failure.satisfaction.relax.tired.joke.home.blog

entry 2

2005-10-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

peace.not myself.piss.xrazy.damn.sad.tired.fustrated.worried.anxious.hope.hardwork.trying.focus.relax.clam.slack.28.27.1.2.3.5.top 10.deprive.happiness.fake.lie.liar!hate it.freak.

joke of the day:

i call my dad...as my mum told me to.

but he din pick up...so i was waiting for his return call...

he took like an hour after that..

dad:maybe i know who is this?

me thinking:huh?

dad:hello...who contact this no. earlier on.?

kelvin:(*ah bis!!)oh...its your son on the line!

dad:huh?

kelvin:wad huh?!ur son la uncle!

dad:oh...u change no. meh...?

kelvin:no?!...ok..nvm...get back and have ur dinner now...bye!!

sux

2005-10-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

ok...proper post today...tomolo back to usual style yeah..anyway..school...yeah...as usualll...u know...here and there...shant say bout teachers...cause it seem to be an offend now...den dnt....suxs...i think i realli slack so much...until from last yr 3rd...to this yr 29...yeah ...u heard me...couldnt believe it...same here...well its ok..what done is done...work it den....

anyway..walk out of school wasnt good at all...u know...jus ...bad...real bad...i mean the pplle i saw...ok...my friends are like old man's hair..u know wad i mean...if u study hard enough...yeah...and..i jus dun know wad o say...but for now...u can hell ignore me...pretend not to see...see seem to exist..(something new i learn)ahaha...but i simply just doesnt wanna care bout how u treat me..thos ignore thingy and the drama mama thingy...u shld jus...u know..get out...

maybe a second post....?maybe...out

second post

2005-10-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

headache.sux.stress.deprive.out of energy..damn hungry.sad.study.school.wad to do

i do not hate.i onli dislike.

and

i hv alot to say.

but.

i rather keep it

hate life

2005-10-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

well.its all a lie.i hv ask u to do the similar thing or go somewhere..similar place.but u r actually heading to it...but not with our grp of friends.well.it break my heart.because i m being prefered.in the bad way.i mean.jerks.depress.nano.hope u serious.because u sound like.u know.cause i doesnt wanna know.angry.crazy.mad.hate.love.gluttony.avarice.sad.deprive.happiness.joy.fun.stress.peace.out

miss ya.maomao
hate ya.star.lier !

its suxs!!

2005-10-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

woke up late.bad day.study.chem.sux.out.fauzi.lido.walk.music.bagus.dinner.only meal.walk.bus.chocolate.wonka.bridge.alone.bus.home.sit.usecom.chat.check mail.blog.mug.slp.nxt day.

my life.love it
www.loner.com

okok!!!!

2005-10-07T18:17:00.000+08:00

SOMETHING...THING HAS TO BE MAKE CLEAR~!!

No la...i m jus trying out the size of the word thingy...ya...hmm..i cant remember what i did mention...anyway...today...i screw my day again...damn it...haiz...erm...slp till so late...hardly any time for studies....which is damn bad....i having pack schedule that are driving me crazy....and i hv to do so much things other then studies...well thats beside the point...just feelin lousy this few days...dun know...my attp is coming back...
30 day to o level
my lonliness...is killing me...eh noww..i m....

ok...i m not talking bout u...i fact someone else..some stuff happen la...onli one erson know...dont be affect by what i say

if we are fated..meet at the bridge tomolo

ee

2005-10-06T19:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday after wake up from nap...ate dinner and then went to meet boo..ss..cl...walk around till bout 10 plus....its was jus like the good old time...jus that i m hving exam...thats y ...

came back home...after that quarrel with mum...or shld i say...her being a ridiculous one...i mean...i see no point of this topic...she jus wanna pick on me...come on la...no one is perfect...dun expect the best out of anyone if u cant do it la...u r a failure...but dun make someone like the same as you...please!!..i m jus freaking piss ..

well...today had a talk(dialog)with mr syed...well... the pressure is on...at least his talk make me feel more...forward looking?optimistic?and getting ready....?ya...got some tips la....gonna try out...but dunno will it works...but worth a try...cause i got no ime left...so ...jus gonna try everything....and he....stop my plan...off...nvm...ahaha....lets see ....vsc .here i come!!

kiong

2005-10-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

blog tell u this-who is your friend
-who cares bout u
-who is alway there for u and around you

o level tell u this-who is ur true friends
-who needs you when onli they face prob
-who offer helps when u face problem..

where are you to me?huh?

well...today was a boring day.....damndamndamndamn...tomolo actually i din wanna attend school...but because of the pinciple talk ..i hv to !!!er!!!!i mean ...i dun wanna miss it den leaving me the last in the class to join maybe the other classes...or worst come to worst...i hv to speak to him alone...ya...

i realise how much i can tolerate a person this days... i dun wanna vent my anger on anyone ...or shout out on/to someone...jus wanna keep cool...so ...careful pple...

ya..i hv finished being made use off...so ...now...i m being thrown aside...someone is better off teaching you..let it be...

out

2

2005-10-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

u break my heart today....so i directly shot back at you...no prezzie for you...well...u still got time to make my heart melt and get that for u...thats realli depend on you man...ohhuuu....ahahaha..wait....so do i get something like that for my bdae also....?i doubt so lor...so i dun receive any advantages too....damn it...y shld i buy for you...ahaha!!!!consider...

realise in this world there is no one that can be as stupid as me...real dumb...i got so much chance today..but its jus simply me lor...what the.f*** man....ai yo...real idiot....i jus miss ..u know...the time...

bad

2005-10-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

ok...i m feeling quite extremely demoralise now...seriously...was happy that i could actually pass but not very well la...but u know...if i still can pass means that i still got hope...but adding the last subject....f9...i became demoralised....i mean like....because of a f9...i got 27!!!and its like r4....i believe my class majority is better...much more better than me...i feel so pressure by all of them...and i m not feeling that ok...er!!

no matter how badly u did...there is always people like me for u to compare to...
sad.

bored

2005-10-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

post 2..

sometime..either a guy or a gal..they need care and concern...finally i admit...ok..fine...!thats beside the point...yea...! thats wad i need now...

its weird for a guy to say this...but then...its ok...i m a small boi...haha...yea...

jus feeling empty..need the old you..seriously.

we are drifting..apart..yes...so bored talking to you now...no concern is show...like be4...obviosly thats what i need most now...because studing is stressing me up..

bloggers

2005-10-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

2 kind of blogger-1.A place for pple to shout out..
-2.Write down everything just to let pple know how u r doing.

me?neither here or there..maybe 1!?yea...everyone is stress..bout 'o' level...indeed..veri stress....addition with those shitty result...it nvr bring me any further...jus feel demoralise...but...oh well...wad to do...this is wad life is all about....in singapore?hmm..

i work better under stress..jus u know..make yourself feel the pressure is on..exam is coming and its end of the world...BUT...dun panic..yea?cause once u think of all this u will start to panic..so..jus..keep cool..think of solution...dun panic and yourself lose control...hope u guys who read this..will help u study better..;-)..

work on people.!
all the best...hehe

yea...new skin

2005-10-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

my tarot say:
break down your barriers only when you feel that the otherperson can be trusted.Establish this first and foremost

was just a lottle bored...so decide to play with my tarot....ok...something that make me feel positive...as in wad my tarots say...it was quite good...

i m bored...and sick and tired and depress...thats all i can say..

difficulty breathing...chest pain

comments!

2005-10-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

ok...not feeling very good...yeah...our past seem to be the new story of u guys now...fine...i shant make any comment...have now regret...cause...we have been spilted...so...i cant make any comment too...yeah...but it will be our memory...ours...or maybe onli mine...although it has been changed...ok...i dun wanna say too much....

anyway....jut went to study...but noting done!!!haiz...forget it...i try tomolo ....i promise...if not someone is gonna scold me...!!so end up went ot pub...feeling quite messed up...by onli the same thing as usual...yes...it u...ya....but...i jus nvr get myself high and drink...no matter how much i drink!!wa liao...!forget it..i shall jump down the building !!!

ok...i m deprive of everything...realise how important is u...realli...i dun know y...i willl try to forget bout it...yeah....

peace out....
DUN THINK!!

i m so bored

2005-09-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

it was just another boring day...haiz...feel so tired...obviously someone woke me up at 4 to study again...haiz...that when i start to stay up and cant get back to slp...dunno y...onli u can made me like this...okok...maybe it work...but not for now i mean....ahaha...cause a need a few day break...ok?hehe...aniway...hope u r enjoying ur camp...

ok...had some talk in the hall...by this....botak guy...ahaha...which i actually think he was quite interesting....i bet everyone is going to use the format...ahaha...yeah...confirm la!!because o level is so near....everyone will just try anything to make things work....

ok...my prelim is like shit la...but i hope i will be able to buck up for this one mth....chiong all the way...yup....hehe...

after school stay back to help the dnt student...cause they need to like hand in be4 2...but they hand in like 4 plus 5...den we went home...instead of going home...went to newton because it was raining...so ate quite alot...before gng home

ok...i still dun know ad to say...dun know how we gng to be like this for how long...but i guess...it wont be...cause school is ending soon...i still jus prefer the way u treat me...u know when...dun hv to say....ok...i hope la...although the possibilty is like damn low...but at least there is a chance still...

today..i realise i hv seriously neglected everyone around me...because i was onli concern bout A few starting from this yr...the rest around me start to change...i seriously din know this would actually happen to you guys..u guys was like one of the best friend i know....since last yr....u know i dun like pple to actually smoke...i hv change alot of pple...all my buddies...to actually quite smoking...but i jus din realise u guys are actually smoking too...it jus break my heart to hear that...there is no such excuse as stress or wad...haiz ...i dun know wad to do too..hope u will jus stop whatever you r doin...

not a good day too

2005-09-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

ok...today was jus...hmm...normal...i might say i was ahppier than yesterday...ahaha...cant think of what actually happen...so ya....erm...went out with indra because he need to get a tie for some stuff ....some ym ,maj and kim tag along too...had some interesting topic....ym is so lag!!!ahaha...he is like patium 2 la...ahaha...ok...enough of the chat ...so we went to wheel again...like yesterday cause maj wanna see the nano...she said it was that nice...i dun know...i jus like it.....
respect.....indra and ym is getting it....stock is coming in soon...i m super duper jealous....because i realli want it...but i cant afford to spend so much more money this month...because i alreadi had...and what i spend on.?movie!eating!i m JEALOUS!!!get one for me...on my bdae...someone...!!

yea...i mention that pple change..i change u change everyone change...i nvr said it wa not true...but the thing i see is that when u change...it realli freak me out...u will nvr ever realise what i actually being so paranoid for...ok...maybe parqnoid is too big..but den...ok..get this str...i know u like...i dun know....maybe i felt realli close to u...realli realli close when u actually approach me..i was new to everyone...but someone who actually make me feel different is u....there was so much care and concern...shown towards each other...that already let me feel so touch...because not a single friend of mine shown so much to me...i m glad...this is the image u gave me....but after the very first disagreement and arguement...we jus turn away from each other...i mean...haiz..i doesnt want it to happen....but it jus...i wasnt happy too...

the first you and the recent you...there is soooooooooo much different i see...and the treatment is freaking jus different...i mean...i realli dun know how to explain what is the changes...but i jus feel it...u slhld know it better than me...obviously this is lke not the way i wan things to turn out like...but den....haiz ya!!i jus cant explain...!!!ok... final say...IiIiIiiiiiiii....jus have to say that u r the onli one i dun wanna lose...as in friend...because u r the one who actually can let me feel close to...but when u started ur drastic change and the different kind of treatment i recieve...i was sad......very!!sad.....i wont be complaining so much la...if u wasnt the one who i know that well..since the beginning...i doesnt expect u for the best when you change...but it was simply jus..i cant accept it..if i have a chance to turn back time...i will chose not to have any arguement with you...so that things wont be so ugly between us now....i jus hope you can take a min out of wad u r thinking right now(if you r here to see)...to see what i m thinking...to feel what i m feeling..there is a neccessary for you to see what i mean...seriously...but if there is nothing that u can actually do...den its ok...at least i hv tried...to speak up...and letting u know...

ok...i knw...i m getting naggy again...

i du know what i m talking today.....

cause i had a bad day

2005-09-28T22:01:00.000+08:00

ok....today was my last day...ahaahah...i mean for examination...yeah....

after the last ppr....went to check dnt....ok...i mdefinitely glad that i actually pass my ppr .....but its was onli lie 51...yeah...haiz...i dun know ...jus feeling bad....because i have actually done so much for my folio...but my folio was onli like how much?a b3....it defintely pull me down....i realli cant believe it...it was just...haiz....obviously...i was even upset when pple like jane got a1!!!haiz....i realli CANNOT BEIEVE IT!!if my folio is marks is gonna remain as what i hv couinted...i need freaking minimum of...78.5 to88.5 for a a1!!!i mean to do in ppr...this is what i need to get....wa...this is the range....88.5 is onli like...i dun know...the lowest range....so...haiz...forget it...i m realli getting more upset...i hope i still can make it....for at least a 2!.....study smart!!!

after that maj went missing because some stupid ass jus pass some stupid remarks to her....hey..u r none other better than the rest....so u talk too much ...ok..ass...i just cant stand the way u talk man...jerk....
so we went off to find her...hoping to find her at the bus stop...but she was not there...so we just went off....ate breakfast and catch a movie...ok...it was stpuid to watch a movie twice...but i think its quite worth it la...ahha....to see how the gal die...ahaha...its was just so cool...respect her man...yeah..
next up we actually want to watch a second movie...ahaha...but we did not la...we jus went shopping...window shopping i mean...i freaking saw the NANO!!!!ah!!hot....irresistable...tat all i can say....wait for me...nano...u r not alone...i m here...be patience.....

so went home...ok....i m gonnna to be kinda str forward now...actually i already have a freaking second thot to jus went up the stair..i was realli wondering....den i jus went up...saw derrick and shahrul...so....i dun know...he jus talk rots..i realli hate it...this was the firs time...i felt so pain and irrtated and angry by all the single shit that he mention...u think u r smart la....ifU DIN SAID something to maj...i guess u wont be so afraid and anxious to know how she is doing now...u r a freaking jerk man...so wad...i nvr call u to ask u whether u guys wanna watch movie...because it was simply logic that u guys was playing soccer...u bastard...!!!wad the hell man....did u even call me to play soccer also...even i dun play all the time or crazy bout soccer like u does.?NVR!!so y shld i man...damn it....ur each and single words that is coming out of my mouth....just get the nerve out of me..
and pls....simply showing that innocent face and simply shut urself and talking bout other crap with him....it doesnt help much..THANK!!!JERKS!!

i jus simply dont understand y there is pple like this who is still living in this world!!!simply spoil my day man...!!!oh...i also din know pple change so much...change to a person that i can hardly regconise....u have simply change...n i hate to see the changed u...seriously...

tomolo wont be a better day....out

just another day

2005-09-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

hmm....i feel guilty...ahaha....ok...jus because of that face....!!!that innocent face melt my heart la...ok..i lose...but i un wanna do anything bout it...ahaha...cause i feel so...i dun know...its not embarass or wad..its kist ...i also dun know how to say la...ok...ahaha...ass!!!

i m just in dilemma...for now...

but i hope it doesnt affect my studies...ahhah...ya...cause its realli very important...ok..i m crapping...i can sense it...

anyway...today ppr was so tough la....damn it....goona fail till damn jia lat....but i seem to be 'cant be bother la'......went off to bugis.....to accompany the gals...
MAJIDAH!i dun wan to go out with you animore because..

-ur picking of beansprouy and ur spoiltness(by kim)...turn me off....tao gay rocks la!!!
-u and ur shopping....u just make me addicted to so much things that we saw earlier on...damn it...ahaha...

ok...i m craving for too much things....not onli food...i hv to made myself to think positive...yes...u can do it....ahaha....i m sensing that i m so hyper and getting more crapy!!!how!!!!gosh....its time to slp....i think

wen chun(lao gong)-hope u will be ok...know you wont come to my blog or wun know i hv one...but....jus hope that u will recover soon and come back to me...ahaha....for the first after so long call me lao pou....!!!is suppose to be the other way...anyway....i got too much of husband and wife...so i tend to forgot too..so...nvm...ahaha..yeah...bu my main pt is still that ...take care of yourself..india...i dun trust it...ahaha....ya...kinda unhygenic...so rest and recover fast...

yeah...last ppr tomolo....ok..i better stop...got so much to say lately..freaking loso!!!

i jus could not stop thinking the time we had la..jus ...u know ..when u care so much bout...me...of course...ahaha...but its over...too bad...haiz....i wan to be happy but i m sad....so i guess it jus neutralise my feeling....better stop here...

nite...
peace out
*muacks*

ah!!!

2005-09-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

prac english...compo time..!!!

erm..i jus forget about something...shit..!!but forget it...thats like nt the point of it la...ahaha...so....hmm...

ok...i hv mention to christy before..yes..christy-_-'''...friends in my life are jus passers-by...for me...not even a single that i can actually grap for long....i mean...i had some...i m glad.....proud to mention...someone this yr....but...it was jus the beginning...thats explain...i mean...i feel extremely sad for this...but den...i cant do anything...because it was jus too late...i have made the wrong step earlier on....but den ...there was actually alot of way for us to be even close and better...it was jus not done...so forget it ..

this chpt ....(u have said so...its a chpt to you).....have soon come to an end....without an explaination....because?i dun know...maybe it will be jus unfinish....or it will jus end here....without a proper ending.because..it was already different...miss ya love ya...thats all i can say and give..

i m here to actually say i m not angry because u might think as i m sensitive to it..but it was jus this period of time u guys made me feel good....maybe onli one...cause we been out lately....but i was jus stunned to how things was suppose to be reacted as...

i hv turnly been turn off for studying...i dun know y....i jus enjoy the break recently...to the top...been out and drinking...breakdown?i would say no...ahaha....because being postive is good!!!!bt that was jus the appearance.....yeah...well...soon...i will be in m.i.a....onli certain pple will be contactable by me...or maybe a certain pple can reach me...i wan to put some in...but always i hv second thots because as what esther told me...erm.....o level made u know who r ur true friends.....i mean not because of what happen that they r not my true friends...i jus hope i will hv them..but ...i need time....i m deprive of happpiness..ahaha...yeah...i need time to cool of..sorry guys...i love u as usual....ahaha...

another day has gone...

2005-09-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

woke up so late today...alost 2 i think...haiz...realli bad...ms here and there and slpt back....die....realli cant focus much today...jus like...i dun know...maybe not in the mood...so much thing has been going thur me lately...i wont be back to school after prelim unless its like checking ppr or wad so ever...ya..jus wanna be free and away from every single shit so that i can concentrate more....was jus wondering shld i like go out of town...i know it sound crazy...but...i feel that it works ..yeah...dun know...see how bah...but i will be like m.i.a....yeah...un reachable....ok...maybe can...by phone...and ...and i think thats it la...reachable in the sense if i wanna reply...ahaha...depend on the person...HAHAHHA....bias...yes...i m...!!

ok..this two days was suppose to be studying...but i took a long break...which is bad...but i doubt i will pass if i study also....so....yeah...

i..muz learn to be OPTIMISTIC!!!yes....somehow i jus clear my brain damage today...pple might be feeling sorry...pple might be feeling sad...but if things are not made clear of?as in in general...wads the point of being sad!!!look...the dark side must be happy because 'it' has announce anything out of 'it'...but that doesnt meant that they feel the same way too...wad if they are happily u know enjoying...den u sad for wad....so...me...learn something today....hopefully i apply it...(this part...is more or less for me and myself to understand la..)

audience of a clown..
fool by the tricks they show.

a puppet left hanging on the string....
being make a fool by the clowns by pulling it.

bad bad ass...i realli cant get the thing out of my had...

2005-09-25T03:00:00.000+08:00

ok...woke up like 12 to day cause i was late nite the day be4...ya...so after waking up...started to call eveyone....had a tough time... irealli hate it...when say meet at a time...pple start say i dun k now whether caa i make it...i got something on..i jus wake up...(1)this is one thing i really dun like to happen...so as usual plan...i wait at bk..yeah...met kia jia and jia hui...ahaha....had a little fun session before i discover some stuff....that explain me being the onli audience of an clown act show...well..wad can i say....because she wasnt suppose to say but she had it out of her mouth...so...i will jus help her to act as nth happen...ahaha...(2)must thank me!!!!ok!!!treat me eat!!!but back to the earlier part of the day....i was chatting so nice with them....i jus couldnt stand the fakeness....HUH!!!REALLI AH!!!!!(3)....i was treat like a fool...and it realli break my heart when such thing happen...it realli...wa ...i tell u...i felt so pain thorughout the whole journey to ikea...where i was actually heading for the day...but went there...and had some fun la...but be4 that(4)one friend of mine jus msg me dun vent ur anger on me....!!!i was like!!!hello(shant elaborate wad happen)...i m realli having a bad day u know...dun come across shouting at me...its not funny lor....i hv been hit by so many things today...and came another one...wadever make u happy...go ahead la...fuck u guys man..seriously....i m super upset and angry...but i prefer to make it like nth has happen to me...seriously...SOMEMORE THE BUS WAS SHOWING THE CLIP....BAD DAY!!!!''""CAUSE U HAD A BAD DAY!!!!!!'''ASS!!!!!!

but u v make my day...ahaha...ookok..wanna thank you for that one and onli movie break...ahaha...cause i hv been barred by u to watch movie...-_-'''...yes exam!!!!...fine...ok...had great time with u walking around town ..catch a movie...and went to benjamin shear bridge....came down to esplanade...walk around that area...until clark quay...u jus ....i know...told u i m down today...so bring me around...but pease....i hv to walk from clark quay home...ok...my own choice ....fine....but i hope u will drive me...maybe ur daddy car or my dad's car..yeah...leg aching....ahaha..but i enjoy it...seriously....for eveytime u hv spend the time with me...thanks....

realli.. a bad day
*audience of a clown*stupid me..

have a break...have a kit kat

2005-09-24T13:03:00.000+08:00

ok...yesterday i spend like whole evenig slping at home which is actually quite bad...cause i could have actually spend my time studying cheistry...but ...what done has been one....so...who cares...yeah...den wake up went to play pool with wiki wendy and pi boy....yeah...den they say wanna go pub....cause its calista birthday...so ....yeah...jus went lor....actually i din wanna hgo...cause i m suppose to mug....but..wadever...

went there saw alot of pple...in fact ...i think the whole row behind was all her friends.....ok...i shant comment on her cloths....so u guess....yeah....its was nither bored or fun...yeah....jus......ok.....hmm.....so we had some singing session and drinking session....jus couldnt get high....sucks!!!alot of pple left.....so left me and xueling and wendy and bee ting.....yeah...it was like....wad are we gonna do now...actually was like waiting for the karaoke ...but den....dun talk bout it......ass!!!yeah...so we left at bout 2 plus 3....they was asking us to come back tomolo cause got karaoke...den i was like...ok....anything....see how...!!hhahaha.....thinking...maybe not la...cause i need to study....ahaha..see how la.....okok...gtg out...i need a break...seriously...after all this ppr...

the past u and the future me

2005-09-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

dun knowa wads realli happening....but its not for me to know aniway...hahah...ya....jus think that wad a realtionship can change a person....hmm....alot indeed....a big different and a big change i hv seen....yea.....well...things wasnt back to the past as wad u hv said......but i realli dun wan this to affect me again...cause to think of it agaian...its not worth it la.....so....pray hard.....dun let me think so much....a few more mth and we will jus leave each other.....yeah!!!(kuo shi xin fei)

anuiway....phy tomolo!!!!oh well...wad can i say...i m gng to fail...hahaha....hmm...let see dnt...dun know how badly ill i do ...jus hope that i can remember as much.....try la!!!!!peace out!!!

getting the hang...to hate you

i jus dun like it...

2005-09-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

ok...i m seriously not feeling veri comfortable with all the thing u hv said....if like there i snth u waana talk to me about den dun come and start a conversation...oh...u mean i hv to continue for u....i jus hope that i hv the soul not to reply...because i felt it was kinda rude if i dont...so ...oh well...jus do it..u know...haiz..wad an i say....but den wad u hv said is all lies la...please...if u cant decide whether things will be better or not..den dun promise pple....its jus lke....u mak me happy for a moment...for that moment...but after that....when things dun work out as what u hv said....i get upset bout it...not u ...me...obviously...u r enjoying...k ...fine...if things doesnt work well...let it be den ...who cares...u know....i mean ...i hv to learn to jus put all this aside for now as things doesnt work well...and it doesnt seem to be better...

well...its jus a few more mth ....so i will jus tolerate ...and see how things happen...after all...i dun think e got time for all this although...i will be affect...in my heart...but wad can i do if things dun work...u wan me to beg u....?/or see me breaking down den u will realise how bad thing is...yes...i i was stupid to place idea in that manner to makes thing better.....that was last time...but for now...ha....i DUN CARE!!!JUS FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!HAHAHA,......jus feeling bad....and down....so...gotta let my chest out

.....prelim is gonna real bad....

hmm....jus a unprogressive day....

2005-09-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

ok...i woke up damn late today...almost 3.....haiz...real bad....den did some math....denwent off to grandma hse...bbq....had quite alot of fun la....ahaha....but den i realise....i din study much today....omg!!!!haiz...how......i hope i still can catch up tomolo....gnoing out to study...shld be ok.....hahah.....pray hard...

dunno....jus miss you...ahaha....okok...be specific.....hmm.....i jus miss watching movie ...hahah...ok... ....nvr meet for so long aleadi...guess need to wait for one mth....haiz....hope to see u soon...sorry for the language today.....jus.....dunno

oh my gosh

2005-09-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

i realli cant get started studying....is not i dun know how....but i just cant get started.....i gt no mood to study at home...i just wanna get out of this hose because i cant concentrate....haiz....com is a distraction....but thats not realli the point la.....all i been studying is jus math.....other than that....i dont know how to get started....die la.!!!

my prelim is like so freaking near...but i still dun know alot of things...how to pass....my progress report...there is no value added..at all...wa liao...i m realli scared now la....

my weak subject is like....sci ....com human.accounts...this are like my weakess sub...i might et f9...but i just cant get started to revise them....and thre is like tons of it to revise....i jus gonna be so dead....haiz....anyway...seeing my class....so hardworking...the pressure is realli on man...i realli dun know wad will i get...for prelim....because i seriously got no idea how i would i do for my prelim....afraid that it will be like mid yr...i hope not....okoko.....gotta go...see how....haiz

ur hardwork pressure me...i see u studyin so much...and i m worried for my self...u put the pressure on me man

freak...damn

2005-09-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

haiz...not again....i woke up at 1 07 again...same time...gonna be so dead...its goonna be 4 and i cant get started to study ...well...maybe today i jus need to get out and study...but pease ..not alone....sian....waited for someone....but nvr reply .....and he is studying now....asss...fine....i better go bath now....and start studying instead of using the com.....haiz...gonna flunk my preliim.....shit.......peace out..study!!!!!

okok...jus better today..yeah

2005-09-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

hmm...woke up so late today....wasste time to study...u know...woke up at 1pm...wad the....jus total waste of time..but i was jus too tired....yeah...so shall not waste time...went out after cleaning up ....staight away to get what i need.....came back and start what i hv plan tos study today....ya.......so start of with math...realise like there i s one thousand and one things i dun know bout it....jus feeling so confused....but at least i learn something...i spend 3 hrs not even finishing on one topic...gosh...but i realli do alot of work...yeah...i guess...haha...ok....after that is physic...and 3hrs again...not finishing one topic...i m quite worried....because i m still stuck with this few topic and i hv like tons to cover on.....and i hv like...u know..8 to 9 subject more......gosh....i m seriously worried...i need to plan how to work.....i m scared.....for my prelim....ah!!!!!!!!okok...gtg....study chem now.....peace out...

nth is realli done ...there is no talking or what so ever....i think ita because ...erm...we r busy....or u...too worried bout ur studies....jus hope that things will be still fine after what u hv said...i hope so....okok....

cant concentrate

2005-09-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

haiz...i just cant concentrate ...dun know y...i onli can practicdemath...ands that all....not even science...i been trying to concentrate but...haiz...wasted one day again...damn it....still got science....chi ..mathg...huimans. ....account...dnt....ooooooooooooooooh my gosh.!!has any one has a potion...i think i better slp ealry to night so that tomolo can wake up early to start mugging.....ya....hope so....hahaa....okok...i m much better off already because things seem fine....but its still...u know....not right...yeah...i jus hope things will be better....yeah?!hmm....okok....i think i better starting planning back wards wad i need to study each day...hopefully to complete be prelim :3...heehe...hope i will pass...and u know...get at least like....19...scrap thur...which is actualy impossible..but....adverts teach me...."impossible is nothing"-nike....hahaha....

craving for fries...mac....billy bombers ...chesse...pizza....
wish list is coming up...n i tihnk i need like 3 piece of ppr...haha

the flesh is torn

2005-09-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

y....y no matter what i say u jus cant get it....i jus doesnt want u to go....dont want anythin to happen to you....there is nth to decide anymore...i dun care what category u put into ....i jus hope the best for you...it realli break my heart to see the msg....i jus cannot forget the msg u send me....its hard..u jus cant forgive and forget...i dont know y i hv to start dropping tear out of my eye....i m realli sad....y!!!THERE IS NO FUCKING SOLUTION!!!!Y U DUN GET MY PT....I REALLI DUN WAN ANYTHIN TO HAPPEN..........I REALLLI DUN WAN ....REALLLI...dun wan...pleaseeeeee..*sob*...i jus hope u will know i feel rite now....realli..writing this entry with tears...it doesnt feel good...at all

it hurts

2005-09-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

ur message slap me in the face....real bad...and it freaking hurts...

for the first time...a person message made such a great impact...it hurts....the freaking fuck word stab a knife thur my heart.....its freaking pain....it jus make me cry ...i realli did nth wrong...jus that i dun wan this to happen....i m WORRIED!!!!!YES......worried....but u dun get me....i m not cursing u...jus hope..........................that everything willbe fine...0242am....i will ALWAYS REMEMBER..the day when u send somethin like this to me...know u r sturrborn....so nth will change even how many i said it......bye...and for the very last time...sorry...

gosh

2005-09-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

not again...after one...comes another....haiz

zi...i know u wont come to my blog...but i jus wanna say.....1st...the nth is irrtating because i was angry ....but den it was onli once...yes......really...second...i dun wan u to go because u just got ur licence...and it will be onli a yr also.....wad if something happen.....u said u gng with ur racer friend that y i say dun go...i wont say anythin if u go with phee(but he smoke...damn)....but den it jus like....i dun wanna lose anythin anymore....wad if realli something happen(it will nvr....touchwood)......remember wad i said bout stable friend...yeah....u r sort of my onli one....
i m sorry.....realli....seriously.....now is up to you... take care...

a new hope

2005-09-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

i hope for a new hope...

today...this entry is for u...yes...you...i know you somewhere....it was realli great...realli..great knowing you...yes...its truth....i was glad that between us there was nth...in fact ...its was onli jus a few mth....then we became very good friends....yeah....i enjoy the moment...u know ...when u would actually say..."hey!!!where are you?still not home to study?....or "hey!how u doing...study at some place with ur friends?call u back...or see you online...yeah?"its was just nice...u know ...as in.....to me...in my dictionary...there is no such word as classmate that last for more den two yr becausi hv been changing class since the very first r to the second to the three to the forth and to the fifth......i m glad..that actually someone....who actually care......woa!!!!!u know....there someone who know me...wanna understand me....whopppppppiiiiiiii!!!yeah?!so i was freaking glad and happy....

but good things doesnt last for long....u know...yeah friends.....human change everytime in life...i change for wad kind of enviroment i m in...u know...i accomodate to wad it takes to make everything better....yeah...because i realise thing around me change.....friends....classes......everything....so i try to fit in...but for now....i think that there is something wrong between us....it is jus like....i dun know.....there is so much factor that came in that i dun like(i din know there is so much like clubbing,drinking,por*....in your life.....i just realise so much about u....recently.....the another side of you...its realli...i dun know...if i were to choose which side of u...i prefer....the first few mtrh when i know u...u know..i m everyone would wanna see u ....the first few mth u....not the recent u...yeah?to ur other grp of friends they would definitely see as nth wrong because one of them influence u too much...u know...

i jus hope that u would change....*HOPE*......YEAH....because thats the *e**i*k i wanna know..its jus break my heart to see whats is happening between a good friend to a enemy...well...no matter what happen...i wish u the best...because we might not hv the chance to ...u know....yeah?gonna miss the first feew mth of you...hahaha....okokokko

rememeber these line?
*hugs be4 parting....awwwwso sweet!!haha-now-->ewwwwwww
*ur new caption for the picture...that we first took...wrriten in my blog...my new(u know)....--now--->oh gosh.....y did i ever say that...ewwwwww
*oh....dun be sad ...i pray for u...brb--now-->i jus cant remember....nono...nope...

u once tag for me...if u r here...jus tag something...i wanna know...

zi...thanks for the advice....

yeah!!!!!!great day!!!!

2005-09-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

i woke up late....mum was like shouting...aint u suppose to go today with ur cousin...she is like chasing me out of home...ok...so i went....but rainging...nvm...continue....and my cosin all freaking late la....wa....for the first time i was the earliest...din realli study that much la.....not good wor!!!!!den after my cousin finish with her lecture notes annd we went billy's bombers!!!!!yeah!!aftera long time...yeah...was suppose to go hoome la.....but den huh....hmm...i went out...hhahaha...went to meet fauzi.....we went to watch movie...not one but two...decide to watch one more because it was still early.....hahah......first ...red eye....marvellous....nice...i love it....second....the maid-_-''''...i dun know...maybe because of contacts.....i cried thur out the show.....but it was still nice...

thanks for always be there 4 me...haha....i know....because i was angry that y u want me to be out .....stil...thank...u understand me well....not like someone elsE*rolling eyes*...yeah....better get ur dads car....so dun hv to walk....hehe....peace out

jerk....freaking ass.....i freakid hate u

2005-09-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

i had my band dinner...its was fun..the table was the noisiest....as usualllhaha.....we realli had grat time together...however...i hope that u guys will strive for wad is ahead for u....wad is prepare for you...now...we had to go our separate ways....haiz...

yeah...i m piss and angry....i dun knwo ...i jus saw another expression...so wad....if we dun go..it doesnt even poilt ur day...u will hv fun as usual....whats the dif......ass....i m angry because the face that u show keep appearing on...my freaking...face......!!!!!ya...i m contridicting now...is not that i m angry because of that....is jus because...thats not the real u...i hv seena better side of u....when i know you....but when time goes by...there is just a different side of you....i m heart broken...because this few days u make me see the real u ....its jus so hurting ...i wish u were still u.....from where we knew each other....

its sucks!!!!!!!!

2005-09-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

haiz...i jus cnt stand today...it was...nt wrong...jus bored...ahahah!!!!!mad ass-_-'''....anyway...i mean i start to hate someone...i din mean to.....but..i dun know..u made me...haha....i dun knwo shld i be happy.....(pple will start to say i m phsyco)haha...or...shld i be sad...(pple will start to...can u DUN BE LIKE THIS!!!!!)haha...i dun know la...but den it jus times that i feel happy and times that i feel sad bou it....or angry!!!!!!maybe...i dun know.....he jus make me angry....i will nvr forgot today...!!!!!!!!seriously...ok...now i m angryr....i was like...i shant mention what happen or it wil be obvious....ya....the person jus stand there and watch...!!!hello..i m like...*nj*r**...but jus stand there and watch....freak...i m piss lor!!!!!!fine...i m jus being ake la...to what u might be thinking....but who cares bout you now....

hey you...get out the way....get out the way you get out the way!!!!!

too boring....my life is getting boring

2005-09-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

haiz....today...woke up at 12 plus....and end up doing nothing....well...abit of studying...abit oni la...till now....7...haiz...i m gng to fail my prelim....die !!!....i just feel so bored....life is realli getting boring.....no friend...not at all...but jus..u know....jus hope that there will be someone who will understand me like someone a few mth ago....

that was the days that i realli hv fun..as if there is nth in this world for me to trouble about....because there is somone like uuuuuu.....haha...for me nt to worry bout other stuff....

but the sad thing is that thing wasnt the same alreadi....things....doesnt go the way as wad it suppose to be..well...if that what it is...den let it be den...i realli cant do anythin bout it...but jus to lay dwn.....and feel deep in pain....

still i wanna thanks for the time u hv show care and concern to me.....even i m jus onli a friend that u know not long...